Still can’t believe it even as I type this but I am undeniably pregnant with our 4th child. Eeeeik! I seem to remember a little outbreak on my Facebook feed 2 months ago over a picture of me looking pregnant in a black dress only I wasn’t pregnant and I certainly didn’t think I would be anytime soon. Jokes on me!
I was for sure a little shell shocked when I saw the test with the word “pregnant” spelled out across the screen all permanent and definitive. I had to giggle a little as I held the test in one hand while I looked around the filthy Circle-K bathroom I was standing in. I gave myself 5 minutes to freak out and then I went home and pretended like nothing was any different while I put away the groceries. I didn’t sleep for one second that night and then that next day I began a downward spiral into a hysterical panic attack. I tried to plan a special and memorable way to tell the Boss his baby wish had come true but I ultimately decided that despite my efforts I wasn’t doing a very good job of hiding the fact that I was whole-heartedly freaking out. I knew he would figure it out on his own sooner than later so I just asked him to meet me for lunch and told him in person. He was wildly excited just as I had expected. I immediately felt peace after telling him. His excitement seemed to ease the anxiety I was feeling over all the unknown. I admittedly felt guilty for not being excited right away. That’s actually an understatement, I was down right depressed. That must sound terrible to you but pregnancy for me is no picnic and I had been feeling overwhelmed by the 3 kids I already have, I just couldn’t fathom parenting FOUR kids! I allowed myself the remainder of the week to continue freaking out and wallowing in my dread and then I called my bestie and we put together an improv photoshoot so I could make an announcement to send to all of our family to surprise them with the news. Everyone was as surprised as we were of course and having all of their support has gotten me even more excited about our little bean.
I don’t have a preference or a feeling about what the gender will be but Bret and our kids are desperate for a boy so I will be crossing my fingers and hoping for blue in the future. So far I am feeling pretty darn great and I will be working as much as I possibly can until the dreaded vomiting kicks in. Until then I will be praying for no vomiting at all (pray with me?). Wish me luck!
I’m just newly pregnant and am not due until October 2013! I know how fast rumors travel so I was wanting you all to hear the great news from me first!
Ps. Pregnancy comments are ok now 
XOXO,becki
photography by Ten22Studio
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YAY!!! I am so Happy for you girl!!! Congrats on the numero 4!!!
Let me just say this was my SAME thought when baby #4 was coming 2 years later…it’s nothing! really it’s just one more kid. 3 was harder than 4. Really its the truth. I can have 6 and it feels no different than 4 in fact it’s easier. You got this!!
So happy for you 
I completely agree with this!!! Once you have 4 whats 10 more! Haha. Congrats!
Don’t beat yourself up over not feeling immediately excited. That’s normal after your first baby. Congrats a gorgeous mama, so happy for you!
Congratulations!! Praying for you!
I can so totally relate! I only have three but the first two are 17 months apart and the second two are 16.5 months apart. I was seriously depressed when I found out I was pregnant the third time. not that I wasn’t happy about the baby but the idea of being pregnant again seriously freaked me out. Love your photo shoot! you look adorbs as always. Congrats to y’all!
This is crazy cute! Congrats!
Congratulations!!! I too am pregnant with #4 – yay for lots of babies!!
I’ve heard 4 is like the “magic number” in number of kids. Some how it is easier or more even or something. I had my 3rd the same week you had your 3rd, now I feel like it’s time for me to get going! Ha. Congrats on the great news.
Funny you should say this. I have 3 (my nest is complete). Everyone — parents, strangers, two pediatricians — have said that you should always have an even number. Otherwise, someone will always be “odd man out.” I do see that with my 3 boys. When my nephew comes over, it’s much quieter with 4 than with 3.
Congrats……..I feel a little guilty for maybe putting it out there. Great photoshoot btw, I have only recently found you, so I can’t wait to see how much you will rock pregnant.
Lol! I am due in June and we’d been hoping for a baby for years. I freaked out lol we have 4 girls and 1 boy and our prayers for a boy were answered!
I’ll send blue dust your way!
CONGRATULATIONS!!! What happy happy news!! I pray for a vomit free pregnancy for you. <3
YAY!!!! How exciting! What a fabulous way to announce too. Love the pictures and the who set up. You know what they say, great things come in 4′s or was it even numbers are better… what ever it is, yay for baby number 4!!
Congrats!!!! Love the mini photo shoot!
Congrats!! So excited for your family! May this pregnancy be uneventful.
Congratulations! How very exciting for you and your family, although this is a bit nerve racking and was a little unexpected, I am sure baby no.4 is going to fit perfectly into your little nest
I just want to say that this is absolutely adorable & am possibly going to steal the idea for my next pregnancy when & if that happens! But also I totally feel your pain on being sick & vomiting! I was sick my entire pregnancy with my son & with my daughter I was sick until about 16 weeks. So I completely understand how utterly miserable it is… so I am praying that you do not have any sickness with this pregnancy!
Don’t beat yourself up over not feeling immediately excited. There are so many emotions (the brain-kind, as well as the hormone-driven kind) involved with pregnancy, no matter how experienced one is: happiness, fear, anxiety, worry (about the baby, finances, how the other kids will adjust, your physical condition…), exhaustion. It’s okay if happiness doesn’t immediately bubble to the surface. Trust me, it will. Don’t worry about what you’re “supposed” to feel
wooooo! That’s fantastic news! Don’t feel guilty about freaking out…I think it’s normal? At least every time I’ve found out I was pregnant I freaked out in the same way for at least a couple of days! But then it’s happiness and sunshine…and vomiting soon after
wooo! babies!
Congrats….oooh, an October baby! My daughter’s birthday is the 31st and mine is the 30th: all I can say is good luck!
Huge congrats!! I have 4 kids age 5 and under. Every pregnancy was very hard with a lot of complications. Everytime I got pregnant again I was depressed because I knew how hard pregnancy was for me,but my kids mean the world to me and I am so happy to have them. Congrats again on #4. So exciting! Praying you have an easy pregnancy. xoxo
So cute Becki! I love the photoshoot! So creative and pretty! Congratulations!
Congratulations!!! (I started following you via House of Smiths and thank you forever for introducing me to a stippling brush and Hello Flawless!)
xo,
Shannon
Congratulations! Amazing news
The photos are beautiful too!!
Saying an extra prayer for you now!
I was blessed by reading your story. I’m 25 weeks with baby #3 and had really hard time to adjusting to the thought of it all had total freak out melt down. But feeling great now thank you for sharing this with us!
Hooray! You look fantastic… seriously! I’m so happy you are happy. Life is scary sometimes, but I love how you are jumping in with both feet. Lots of prayers your way for an easy pregnancy and easy L&D, oh and boy wishes, too!
Congrats!! I used to say I’m going to have five kids. Then I got married and my husband talked me down to three. Then I actually had a baby and have complete respect for mothers out there. You all make it easy. I had horrible morning sickness that lasted half the pregnancy. I just keep thinking how could I endure that morning sickness again and what if the birth experience is just as horrible?!! Ahh. I have so much respect for you lady. I will pray that you will get lucky this time around and the morning sickness won’t come. It is so hard to bare!! Congrats again.
Congrats! Don’t worry I had a bit of a freak out when we learned we were having number 4 too. You have the cutest babies! Good luck and I really hope you don’t get sick.
Congrats! What exciting news and beautiful pictures! How fun!
Oh happy day! I feel like you are taking the words right out of my mouth! Something is in the water! We JUST found out we are expecting our 3rd in October!!! Total SHOCKER! The kicker – out baby is only 8 months! We are hoping for blue as well since our 2 our precious little girls. Husband is praying hard on that one!
Congrats! You are in good company!
These pictures are amazing, what an adorable shoot! Congratulations Becki! You are a great mom!
WOW! Congrats! Welcome to the 4+ club! (I’ve got 5)
Beautiful photo shoot
whaaaat?? SO excited for ya Becki! Will I get to see you again in April at Snap?!
That is funny how you described your feelings about having baby #4, because if I were surprised like that I would probably freak out also. I too have 3 kids and know how crazy life can get with having more than 2. But I am glad that you are starting to get excited, sometimes the Lord def has a different plan than we are expecting
Blessings to you and your family, one more cutie to add to your bunch!
xoxo,
Shio
Yay! Congrats Becki – fabulous photot shoot!
xo, Becky
Congrats!!!
I am soooo excited for you and hope that this pregnancy go’s well! (aka: no vomiting
You look absolutely adorable in all these photos btw. Such a cute way to announce it 
xo
summer
Congratulations!! You are so adorable! Love the pictures. You are so creative! Good luck to you & your beautiful family.
Love love love this! You don’t do anything half way & I love that about you Becki! You are the best mom & this is amazing! So excited to see your posts! I am praying– no vomiting! I really would love to schedule a styling session with you before my son’s wedding. I have your business card from the La Di Da boutique. So, hopefully sooner than later I will be calling you. yay — for baby number 4!
Congratulations! I have four kids and it’s definitely easier with four than three. My hubby and I can split them into twos and take them places. Although, my oldest two are 16 and 14 and they go by themselves now.
My littles aren’t so little anymore either. How fast they go. Best wishes on keeping down the cookies!
You know how I feel! EEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPP! So so SOOOO excited for you! This is one lucky lil ‘bebe’ to have YOU as a mom! You are my best!!!! Love & adore you foreverrrr! xoxox
R
Congrats to you & your family! You are a beautiful girl w/has truly been blessed! Lovely new website too!
So is that the result of a relationship Q&A? Good to know for the future
Just teasing. Congrats!!
I found this through ten22 studio – and I must say – I can understand EXACTLY what you are talking about! I just found out in January that I was expecting baby #4 – just two days after my crib was sold on Craigslist – because we were done at three. And I was depressed as well – counting the days once the sickness kicked in. I remember telling my Mom – only 49 more days of feeling sick. Thankfully I’ve made it through and am on the other side of the sickness. Only a bit of it here and there. I am still a bit nervous about four munchkins but I’m starting to get excited to meet and hold my little one. Feeling him/her move inside me has really helped with my excitement. I will pray for an easy first trimester and a great, healthy pregnancy!!!!
The photo shoot is fabulous! You are just too cute, as always!!!! Congrats!!!
you sound like me.
when i realized i was pregnant…
with our 5th…
and i was about to turn 42…
depression…um…yes. i totally!!!!! get that.
happy to hear the peace that has found you.
(we met at SNAP 2012 and I look forward to meeting you again next month)
thank you for sharing your news.
and congratulations.
~jamie
First off, have to say how much I loooove these pictures!! You can eat all you want now, right?
Second, I am just so daggum excited for this baby news! Congrats to you and the fam. 
Oh hell you are something special! I fell in love with your pins.. saw your annoucement and I was all.. yea she prob doesnt have kids. Then I saw it was for your 4th baby and now I realize that we are long lost sisters! hahaha… I just announced on Mothers Day that I am expecting baby number 4. Started using the hashtag #babynumber4 today on Twitter and Instagram. So glad to have met you my equally chic, super trendy mommy of 4! Check out my blog when you have a chance!! I’m due Sept 2013!